I dream a dream

I know the title seems a tiny bit hackneyed. But, long story short, everybody possesses his/her own dreams; they could just dwell in a nook of your heart, awaiting to be revealed someday.

OK, so I am a junior in high school right now. Since I'm taking a couple pretty rigorous AP and honor classes, I would mostly consider myself a candidate for top-notch colleges. However, for the most part, I'm pretty scared to tell anyone of my dream about the future. I don't dare to let anybody know beforehand, as though it would be crushed before I know it. Moreover, I hate comparing myself with those smarty-pants around me, which is what I do all the time, but juxtaposing really takes away my hopes sometimes.

Ever since the beginning of my junior year, I spent a large percent of my leisure time looking up all types of colleges I want to get in. I bought many test prep books. I even choose studying over sleeping sometimes for the sake of my GPA. But still, I'm afraid, afraid of someday, when I look back, I regret that I made this decision to work my tails off to get into prestigious colleges but ended up having my dreams NOT realized. Consequently, I always have conflict in myself from both sides to convince me to do this and that. Fortunately, I haven't given up on that.

Therefore, I promise, I will work to my full potential to achieve my dream. Yay, it even sounds cheesy to me, the author. But oh well, you'll see.